I FAILED MY DRIVING TEST AGAIN

Aiya, i failed my driving test again.  The result was out before i even took the test - GOD knew the outcome, He is the Alpha and the Omega.  So He knew i was going to fail.  He could have removed every obstacle to my passing, but He didnt.  The time is not yet come.  So be it - as long as it pleases HIM.  He is not frivolous with us, He cares deeply for us.  He is awesome!!  HIS will be done.

BROKENNESS

It has begun to dawn on me that the life of a christian is one of suffering.  My 11 year journey as a christian - with the many testings and trials in everyday life - has caused me to draw this conclusion. 

We are really living in the end times.  There is great deception.  Most christians wouldn't agree that suffering is the lot of a modern christian - but blessings that satisfy the lust of the flesh is the way to go.  I am becoming wary that i am much brainwashed to accept a lot of twisted values.  One of which is the ME worship.  My career, my personal development, my privacy, my rights, me me me. 

I am tired of me.  As i awaken and begin to not ME so much, i feel something stirring in my spirits.  I begin the see the Hand of God shaping my character - that He really arranges or allow things to mould me for HIS glorious work.  I have failed to make sense life, now i let Him show me what life i really about