Tuesday, 4 August 2015

DREAM: Dreamt i was driving but began slowing down like its going to breakdown.

PM: while driving, my petrol indicator shows 2 bar.  Minutes later, the empty indicator started flashing. I was shocked and proceed to drive to the petrol station.  I feel there is a spiritual meaning to this occurrence - l'm running low on e' oil of the Spirit ? Need to fill up?

I'm reminded of Pastor Isaiah's prophecy - stamp you feet as you dance!  

Road Trip To Taiwan Miaoli - A Trip Of Faith

I recently embarked on a first ever road trip - to Taiwan.
My Cantonese Speaking Car

My church had organised a mission trip to Taiwan and i was blessed to be called to participate.  I had wanted to extend the trip to take a 3 day retreat at the Miaoli prayer mountain.  God had other plans.

After getting my air ticket extended i called the prayer mountain office.  They are not opened at the time of my intended visit.  Then i had a brilliant idea (it was at that time).  Why not do a road trip!!

Over the next 2 days i got all the necessary accommodation and car rental issues settled.  I was ecstatic.

The mission trip was an eye opener for me but the real faith building experience God had relegated to the road trip.

The day i collected my rental car i was nervous.  When the vehicle was delivered to me it was a bigger car then i had expected.  It was raining which added to my anxiety.  I'd never used a GPS in my life and had the shop assistant helped me with it.

Maple Leave Homestay -
i was the only guest that night
When i sat in the car i was overwhelmed big time - it is a big car.  Taiwan cars are left hand drive and i do know prior but sitting in the car the reality of what I've gotten into hit me hard.  "Xiao-liao what have i gotten myself into".  However, at the back of my mind i knew i had to do this - die or alive".  The shop assistant sensed my anxiety and oasked me point blank,  "Are you sure you can do this?"  I'm thinking like it's not a matter of choice now right!  Boh bian - must ngay ngay lai (no choice just do it).   She look worried for me (bless her kind soul) gave me directions on how to get onto the highway and i set off.

As the vehicle moved off, the GPS kicked in and the voice was not speaking English or Chinese - but Cantonese!  Wah biang - good thing i know can'nese man!!  God sure prepared me well - 'gam sia Yasaw' (Thank U Jesus).

As i was driving i keep turning on the wiper when i meant to turn on the signal light.  These kept happening until my brains got wired that signaling is left hand - it was fun - hur hur.   Wah, i tell you Jesus was my Life Saver - i imagined Him seating beside me - that helped settled the anxiety.  And i keep talking to Him.

Eventually i begin to get the hang of things and settle down.  However the skies turned really dark and it began to pour.  At the back of my mind - i know this is a faith test.  So no point praying for the rain to stop lah i just went with flow.

Scene from my room at the Maple Leave Homestay
Next, because it was overcast and the car i was driving was tinted black and with the heavy rain - i could hardly see.  I had to squint my eyes.  It was quite scary.  And as if this is not enough - condensation began to form inside the vehicle - i was too overwhelmed to realize all i had to do was to lower the temperature - as it was very cold outside and my bodyheat was building up inside - I ended up frantically wiping condensation off the windscreen and window so i could see.  It was madness - too happening.

Basically for a few tens of minutes i was driving on/by faith.  Thank God my faith did not shipwreck but by His grace - He handheld me through it.

A while later, once again i got settled into the challenge then another one came sprouting up which is worse.  A slumbering heavy-ness fell upon me.  I feel myself falling asleep with my eyes opened!  On many occasions i awoke in time to steer my car which was meandering from its lane or driving too close to the divider!!  Wah many close shaves here.  I had to shout and sing at the top of my voice to stay awake.

Finally i exited the highway and enter Miaoli Town.  As i was driving into the town into peace and serenity i began to cry buckets like a baby - not so much because of my relief to exit the highway of horror but as i was driving through the town i sensed that Father God brought me this far to help me realize a deep seated secret desire to drive through the beautiful Taiwan countryside.  I was like Cinderalla dressed in a beautiful gown and attending the ball of her dreams.  i was in my element - totally ecstatic!

Monday, 16 March 2015

HE WAS LOOKING AT ME

YESTERDAY, early in the morning i couldn't pray. I was unsettled. So i told myself to just be quiet before the LORD.  Then i began to feel something rising, that Abba Father Cares for me.  I began to cry.  I have never shared my life with anyone.  No one knows my struggles.  I know that God knows but I always feel detached .  Yesterday something happened and i sensed HIM.  As i cried buckets, i have an impression of a vague pair of eyes looking at me.  It couldn't be my imagination.  It was just there, 2 eyes looking.  l am so touched by the grace of God.  Why is God - SO SO SO -good!  

Later that day, as is the norm, i trawl YouTube for a sermon.  I feel very Bill Johnson lately so i searched for one of his.  APTLY but NOT COINCIDENTALLY this message caught my eye. " Dad wants to fulfill your dreams."  l listened and very soon, i simply broke down. I found my Daddy.  As if i found a long lost kin.  For once in my life, i experienced the Father daughter connection.  Having said this, i remembered why I had gotten so heartbroken in the Morning.  When i was just resting before the LORD, a picture of my eldest brother hugging her daughter came to my mind.  One time my brother Was hospitalised.  We visited him and when it was time to leave he had a quiet moment with his daughter. Before they parted he held her.  It was a very touching moment BUT MY HEART WAS BROKEN.  This morning, the pair of eyes was like an embrace of my FATHER.  I felt loved and wanted. That i do matter, that I'm wanted.  The LORD HIMSELF ministered healing to me.  l cannot express enough my gratitude.  

It is also NOT A COINCIDENT that this week i am on a mission trip to Taiwan.  And one issue on God's heart is hurting daughters. To minister, one needs first to be ministered? l wonder. l await to see HIS glory upon the lives of these hurting sisters. Use me LORD!  i am YOURS!!

Saturday, 14 March 2015

GUARD YOUR HEART GIRLS

A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance.
A sorrowful heart causes a broken spirit.
A heart that has understanding seeks knowledge BUT
A heart unguarded spews foolishness and days are evil with affliction for such a one 
HOWEVER
A merry heart has a continual feast.
S0 GUARD YOUR HEART FOR FROM IT COMES THE ISSUES Of LIFE.
What a person is on the inside has more impact on his emotional state than the circumstances.
I recently met a very interesting character and because he is a brother in Christ i let my guard down.  l allowed him access to my heart.  Then began a journey back to old habits and reckless soulish pursuits.  1 weeks is all it took to dislodge me from Kingdom mindset. But God gave me a rebound.  Thank God for this encounter.  If you don't watch your heart, you can be easily beset by issues of life introduced into it by such 'heart' encounters.  ON GUARD!!

Friday, 13 March 2015

Gird up the loins of you mind....there is need to ponder these powerful words for in it hides the weapon of warfare in these last days.....

life lessons from the Holy SPIRIT

The word 'manage' keeps coming up. Not everyone or anything goes.  Need to manage -emotions, desires, wants ,people, time, etc. Don't let life dictate your behavior, be a manager, of everything. Some people you cannot associate, some things you cannot do even if everyone is doing it, a christian needs to know her calling then will she be able to know how to manage her life.

Thursday, 12 March 2015

Thinking about Abba Father

Jesus had to say :"Father Father why has Thou forsaken me!",  for me to now say "Abba Father You are so good to me!"  Thank You Lord Jesus!!