YESTERDAY, early in the morning i couldn't pray. I was unsettled. So i told myself to just be quiet before the LORD. Then i began to feel something rising, that Abba Father Cares for me. I began to cry. I have never shared my life with anyone. No one knows my struggles. I know that God knows but I always feel detached . Yesterday something happened and i sensed HIM. As i cried buckets, i have an impression of a vague pair of eyes looking at me. It couldn't be my imagination. It was just there, 2 eyes looking. l am so touched by the grace of God. Why is God - SO SO SO -good!
Later that day, as is the norm, i trawl YouTube for a sermon. I feel very Bill Johnson lately so i searched for one of his. APTLY but NOT COINCIDENTALLY this message caught my eye. " Dad wants to fulfill your dreams." l listened and very soon, i simply broke down. I found my Daddy. As if i found a long lost kin. For once in my life, i experienced the Father daughter connection. Having said this, i remembered why I had gotten so heartbroken in the Morning. When i was just resting before the LORD, a picture of my eldest brother hugging her daughter came to my mind. One time my brother Was hospitalised. We visited him and when it was time to leave he had a quiet moment with his daughter. Before they parted he held her. It was a very touching moment BUT MY HEART WAS BROKEN. This morning, the pair of eyes was like an embrace of my FATHER. I felt loved and wanted. That i do matter, that I'm wanted. The LORD HIMSELF ministered healing to me. l cannot express enough my gratitude.
It is also NOT A COINCIDENT that this week i am on a mission trip to Taiwan. And one issue on God's heart is hurting daughters. To minister, one needs first to be ministered? l wonder. l await to see HIS glory upon the lives of these hurting sisters. Use me LORD! i am YOURS!!
