Being

I must remind myself time and again that i am me, i have a personality. However, do i really know who i am- or am i just a mix of what i want to be plus what i pretend to be plus what i really am?

In our Asian society, we have many roles to play - many times in order to play those roles, there is a need to suppress ourselves - to not be ourselves because it is sometimes rude and sometimes offensive to others. On another front, mass media has a way of sometimes impressing on me a trait of someone i'm not but i wish i was. Like how i wish i was the Drew Barrymore lyricist character in the movie Way Back Into Love. Her lips were just dripping with words that tugs at your heart. I like those moments when i sometimes say something in my head that just zapped me - i felt inspired by the mere stringing of some simple words. But those are really rare moments - a fluke.

Its strange that i have to remind myself that i'm not always me. Being is sometimes a funny thing.